Testing, 1, 2, 3...

This serves to mark the beginning of the end. At least of this year of college. I have applied for and been granted a Leave of Absence for the next term (term 5 is kinda like summer break anyway..). I would like to have the benefit of an extra term to make more progress toward my degree, but there are a few conditions that have made my decision almost too easy. I am getting more frustrated, burned out, with college in general. There were so many points in this term that either didn't make sense or felt like it was made intentionally harder than it needed to be. Instead of letting this hatred for the concept of computer science grow, I want to allow some distance and time for it to dissipate. I am having a harder time with lyme treatment than I thought I would have, and as such need the time away from school, including the stress involved with weekly deadlines, to really find healing. I am not entirely sure if the antibiotics/lyme are making me more irritable or if the class/pr...

I have just completed the second month of antibiotic treatment for lyme, and am showing potential signs of improvement. None of my healing is what I would consider linear, but rather in the shape of a waveform. I have crests and troughs. Unlike a good sine-wave, it is not smooth and continuous but has jolts and unpredictable changes to the pattern. So more like an electrocardiograph, which is far more fitting anyway. I experienced some mild insomnia, paranoia, and general dysphoria throughout the passed week or so. This was combined with more lucid dreaming, even ones that would continue where I left off in a previous nap. This culminated in the development of a (so far) mild case of a traditional cold. This is frustrating to me: I am on so many forms of medication and vitamin/mineral supplements, yet nothing can prevent me from catching additional forms of disease. I don't enjoy perpetuating a sense of dread or hopelessness in each of my blogs about lyme. I do this mostly to chron...