I have just completed the second month of antibiotic treatment for lyme, and am showing potential signs of improvement. None of my healing is what I would consider linear, but rather in the shape of a waveform. I have crests and troughs. Unlike a good sine-wave, it is not smooth and continuous but has jolts and unpredictable changes to the pattern. So more like an electrocardiograph, which is far more fitting anyway.
I experienced some mild insomnia, paranoia, and general dysphoria throughout the passed week or so. This was combined with more lucid dreaming, even ones that would continue where I left off in a previous nap. This culminated in the development of a (so far) mild case of a traditional cold. This is frustrating to me: I am on so many forms of medication and vitamin/mineral supplements, yet nothing can prevent me from catching additional forms of disease.
I don't enjoy perpetuating a sense of dread or hopelessness in each of my blogs about lyme. I do this mostly to chronologue and keep record of some of the process. I did not take many notes during the early parts of being sick, and some of the details will probably be lost indefinitely, but I will most likely also attempt to put together some perspectives that include those early days of floating in a lost pool of unconsciousness. It is also with the hope that someone will read my experience and find hope or some form of solace, maybe a sense of solidarity. I have become more aware of the concept of disability, and have grown more sympathetic to the various kinds of limitations we are forced to endure.
I am finding some success in these yoga pants I am currently wearing. My leg pain has been much less today.
I experienced some mild insomnia, paranoia, and general dysphoria throughout the passed week or so. This was combined with more lucid dreaming, even ones that would continue where I left off in a previous nap. This culminated in the development of a (so far) mild case of a traditional cold. This is frustrating to me: I am on so many forms of medication and vitamin/mineral supplements, yet nothing can prevent me from catching additional forms of disease.
I don't enjoy perpetuating a sense of dread or hopelessness in each of my blogs about lyme. I do this mostly to chronologue and keep record of some of the process. I did not take many notes during the early parts of being sick, and some of the details will probably be lost indefinitely, but I will most likely also attempt to put together some perspectives that include those early days of floating in a lost pool of unconsciousness. It is also with the hope that someone will read my experience and find hope or some form of solace, maybe a sense of solidarity. I have become more aware of the concept of disability, and have grown more sympathetic to the various kinds of limitations we are forced to endure.
I am finding some success in these yoga pants I am currently wearing. My leg pain has been much less today.
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